Well, here we are. Full term. (Can you tell I started writing this over two weeks ago.. oops!) Time is whizzing by and in not too long our little boy will have made his grand entrance. Exciting!
I probably have a few weeks left but, as there’s no way of knowing, I wanted to get my (probably final) pregnancy update up on the blog.
Let me start by saying that I am still not prepared (or at least I don’t feel prepared!) BUT! A sudden increase in energy over the last couple of days has meant that I’m ticking off my to-do list rapidly. It’s currently 6am and I’ve just been cleaning my oven because I couldn’t sleep! Is this nesting? I’m not sure… I never really experienced that urge to clean with Saskia! More just the urge to sleep.
How am I feeling?
In general, I’m actually feeling really good! Hungry though, very hungry.. I literally cannot stop eating.
Although technically classed as full-term, I don’t feel like we’re “waiting” for him just yet. Second time around, I think you realise that life is much easier with bubba safe inside your belly! Saying that, I’m getting increasingly frustrated and weary by the day so, & I feel guilty for saying it, I’m not looking forwards to the next couple of weeks. I’m finishing work on Friday & plan to just make the most of my one-on-one time with Saskia but I’m definitely finding it harder to keep up with her. I think she knows that something is about to change. Maybe I’m reading too much into it but her behaviour has changed recently (potentially an age thing as well! I don’t think 2.5yr olds have a reputation for being easy…)
*update: I’ve found the last week or so really challenging. People telling me how excited they are and asking how long I have left has made me feel under a lot of pressure to have him before his due date (madness, I know!) I know, it’s all meant well but I’m just struggling a little with the fact that I have no control over it all. I’m so pleased I took the decision to finish work earlier than I’d planned though! These chilled out family evenings are meaning everything to me.
Labour has been on my mind a lot. Many of you will know, but some of you may not, that I was induced with Saskia at 39+4 due to a worry about her size (which turned out to be completely unfounded!) So, whilst keen to go into natural labour, I feel like a first time mum again and have no idea what to expect! I’m also finding it increasingly hard to trust in my body and believe that it WILL go into natural labour but all of your positive ‘natural labour after induction’ stories & repeating to myself “My baby will come when my baby is ready and my body will know what to do” are helping me challenge those feelings.
How have I been preparing for labour?
Hypnobirthing has been my main tool in preparing for labour. I’ve been following both the online course and reading the book from The Positive Birth Company and have been thoroughly enjoying it! It’s actually very logical and science based, which suits me perfectly and it’s a good excuse to get a massage off the husband every now and again (apparently relaxation is key!)
It’s also helped me to find my all-time favourite room spray – Mio Liquid Yoga. Try it! You won’t regret it. Divine.
If you’re interested in trying out hypnobirthing and want to know more about my experience etc. just send me a DM on my Instagram (@annagladers_) and I’ll be happy to have a chat! I hope I’ll be able to share my own positive birth story in a month or so’s time!
Since the moment I found out I was pregnant this time around, I’ve been planning a home birth and I’m really hopeful that I’ll be able to have one. So we’ve been collecting old towels etc to place over everything when the big day arrives and I’ve been stocking up on tea lights and nice smelling things to create a calm atmosphere. You also have a home visit from your midwife at around 36 weeks where they bring you a big goodie basket full of needles and medicine and god knows what that we’re now having to keep out of the reach of little hands! I wonder if anyone would be interested in a blog post on why we (I) chose to plan a home birth?
How do I feel about labour the second time around?
Excited! Reading positive birth stories has really helped to get rid of any anxieties I had and now I’m just eagerly awaiting the day and imagining how it will unfold. Saying that, as it draws nearer, I’ve been remembering Saskia’s birth more vividly so I’m definitely a little more apprehensive than the first time. I feel a lot more prepared and confident in making decisions that are right for me this time round though, whether things go to plan or not & I have high expectations of Seb considering how fab he was last time!
It feels so surreal that in a month it will all be over and there won’t be the what ifs?! Anymore!
What’s in my birth bag?
I’m was planning on writing a separate blog post on this but I’m not sure that’s going to happen! I did, however, put up a set of Instagram stories the other week and have these saved in my Baby No.2 highlights if you’re interested!
How do I feel about Saskia becoming a big sister?
SO SO BLOOMING EXCITED! I don’t have a single apprehension about her becoming a big sister. I know she’s going to rise to the role fantastically and take it in her stride. Above all, I know it’s going to be so good for her. I’m not in blissful ignorance, I know there are going to be challenging moments but in the long run it’s going to be amazing. I can’t wait to see them growing up together.
What has been my favourite thing about this pregnancy?
It’s hard to say. Probably watching Saskia interacting with my bump and talking about her baby brother. It melts my heart every time. Especially now, as she’s got to the stage of asking me to talk to him and telling him to “wake up” every morning because she wants to play with him. She’s also started calling her smaller doll her bigger doll’s baby brother and takes them around everywhere with her. SO CUTE! This evening she was rocking “baby brother” in the rocker and giving him snuggles so I think she really does know what’s on the horizon.
How has this pregnancy been different from my first?
I don’t think this pregnancy could have been more different than my pregnancy with Saskia. My first pregnancy was really challenging mentally and I struggled a lot with anxiety. It’s only in the last week that I’ve started to find this pregnancy emotionally challenging (unsurprisingly.. I don’t know how anyone gets through the last month without going slightly insane!)
What’s the hardest thing I’ve found about my changing body?
This is a really tricky question but it’s probably the fact that you just don’t know how big you’re going to get. Mostly, I’ve just embraced the changes but I’ve definitely had a few “F*** I’m huge!” -moments. Weirdly enough, the hardest weeks for me were probably the 20s because I just felt chubby and my bump was starting to rest on my legs but I wasn’t used to it yet! Either that or I just forgot how chunky my thighs get during pregnancy! I guess they have to to support the extra weight.
OR hitting your bump on things and falling over because it’s growing so rapidly that your sense of space and balance just cant keep up.
Saying all of that, I think I might actually miss my bump this time around!
What is my favourite item of clothing I’ve bought for Baby Boy?
It’s not something I’ve bought but probably this Silvercross Romper that my Mum bought for him as a gift. It’s just absolutely stunning. We haven’t bought a lot for him but I can’t wait to see him in the bits we have bought and the few hand-me-downs he’s got from Saskia!
I can’t believe this journey is coming to an end (although it feels like he’ll never be here!) & for the next few weeks you can probably find me trying not to be grumpy, repeating positive affirmations to myself, inhaling Liquid Yoga and walking.. so much walking just to stay occupied! I can’t wait to meet our little man and introduce him to all of you!